I’ve been through a lot of thinking lately. Thoughts that I shouldn’t be thinking but I can’t help thinking of. It’s so complicated because I feel that I’m the one who’s creating my own problems but I actually blame my brain for all of it. I just wish that there will be a day that it will stop thinking about the things that will happen, or that I will stop remembering the past (the bad parts), and the like.

This summer officially sucks. I hate this. I hate this sucky summer shit and everything because it sucks being the sad girl; the girl who is left out of the crowd because someone unintentionally broke her heart. I’m the type of girl who normally can conceal her emotion by using her god-given talent of acting. Not that I’m saying that acting is synonymous to lying. But you get the point. So there, I've realized after spending some quality time talking to myself in front of a mirror (i know that's what you call the crazy talk, LOL) I won’t let myself be the girl who’s left out because she let her emotions take over her. It’s not worth the drama.

Anyway, I want to share my dream last night. It went on like this. I was in a concert; actually I was kind of like the star in that concert. So, I was on stage and I was singing with this guy. I don’t know what he looks like, I don’t know who he is, all I know is that I really, really, and I mean really like him. It’s like all I can remember of him is his voice and it was good (and what I mean by good is perfect). I can’t even remember if I was singing well or what I look like at that time. It was so perfect. But you know, it was just a dream but I really want it to come true. Well, the singing part may be left with being done but what I really want to happen is to see the guy or just to know him. Okay, I know you’re thinking that I’m a psycho but is it possible to fall in love with someone that you haven’t even met? Now I’m a complete psycho. But it’s worth it. :)

Labels: life sucks. as of now. :)

  Me llamo bea capili. But you could just call me BEI. Anyway, here are my some of the facts about me...
NAME: Bea Capili
AGE: 14 years. :|
HOBBIES: surfing the net, BLOGGING, chatting, reading, sleeping, eating, watching TV... yadda-yadda-yadda... the usual :)
SPORT: badminton. I'm struggling at it, though.
INTERESTS: performing, acting, singing, my dogs and lobsters, PS2 games like: Dino Crisis, Metal Gear, Resident Evil, Dance Revo (Every girl has a boyish side too, you know.), Chick-lits, Harry Potter Series, Books by Mitch Albom, my cell phone, flip-flops, bags, music,ONE TREE HILL, America's Next Top Model, and a whole LOT more...
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      "At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in this world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good... struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 million souls -- And sometimes, all you need is ONE"

     -Peyton Sawyer "One Tree Hill"

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