Misunderstanding that led to a total mix up
Whoa… I never thought that I would start this year with tons of trouble (and a little amount of cash… hahaha). Anyways, I don’t know what was really going on with me, but… argh! I can’t explain it!!.... it’s just that I’ve never been contented with myself. I mean, I always expect more with something. I know that right now, my problem is not the problem but the way I handle my problem is the problem. It’s too confusing. I know right… but one thing’s for sure, once you get in my position, you’ll be singing that quote over and over again until you’re gagging for air and holding on to your rope of life. Just kidding! But I don’t know why I am becoming my worst enemy. I mean I can make my life easier by accepting whatever my friends are serving on the table (figuratively speaking, of course).

But I am a human being too who is capable of thinking and feeling what I need and what I want for myself. I want to be HAPPY. I don’t want to be someone’s pet and be treated like one. I want to live my life to the fullest. But in order to attain that, I need to have my freedom. And it’s sad to say, I can never have my freedom. No matter what decisions I make, there’s someone who’ll eventually get hurt. That’s why I never had the guts to decide for myself because I’m too coward to stand on my two feet and be a man to whatever decisions I make. That’s why I kept this problem to myself. I never wanted anyone to be hurt in whatever path I choose. That’s why I always longed to be back in my pre-school years because you could just play all day without stepping on someone’s pride or dealing with the fear of losing. Aww… it sure feels great being back to the old life. But we have to deal with our present life. The life that we had longed for when we were in pre-school (hahaha… how ironic!).

So, to my special someone whom I’ve hurt so much, i never really wanted you to be like this… I think I have trapped you too long in a cage so if you’re willing, I’m giving you this opportunity to attain freedom. Freedom to choose if you want to stay in the cage or be free in the wilderness…. <3

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  Me llamo bea capili. But you could just call me BEI. Anyway, here are my some of the facts about me...
NAME: Bea Capili
AGE: 14 years. :|
HOBBIES: surfing the net, BLOGGING, chatting, reading, sleeping, eating, watching TV... yadda-yadda-yadda... the usual :)
SPORT: badminton. I'm struggling at it, though.
INTERESTS: performing, acting, singing, my dogs and lobsters, PS2 games like: Dino Crisis, Metal Gear, Resident Evil, Dance Revo (Every girl has a boyish side too, you know.), Chick-lits, Harry Potter Series, Books by Mitch Albom, my cell phone, flip-flops, bags, music,ONE TREE HILL, America's Next Top Model, and a whole LOT more...
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      "At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4 hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6 hundred, 71 people in this world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good... struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world, 6 million souls -- And sometimes, all you need is ONE"

     -Peyton Sawyer "One Tree Hill"

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